It's been ages since I've written something. Before I started uni, and now I've decided to take a break. Maybe start again in February, maybe not. I have no idea where this will take me. I would love to go travelling. But I'm scared to do it alone. But maybe that's just what I need? I'm considering a "working holiday" in Australia for a few months. That would be great! But then there is the people at home in Norway that kinda has already decided I'm moving back there. Which is NOT going to happen, they just dont want to understand it. Which is really frustrating right now. The thing is I want to travel now. I don't want to wait til after my studies. Right now I have no responsibilities. No relationship, no kids, nothing. And I love it. I can actually just go travelling for a year if I want to. If I finish my studies now, I don't think I'm gonna go travelling. I think I will be having kids and setteling down soon after. Well maybe not soon, but still. Right now I know that I don't have anyone else to think about. It's just me. I just wanna go away, have time to myself, figure out what I want from my life. I think I just need a break from "the real life" as I know it. Which consists of studying, working, and not much else. There is so much more out there. So much to see, so much to do, so many things to learn, so many new people to meet, so many experiences I wouldn't want to be without. Even if I have no idea what it is! It's so tempting. Just go, leave everything behind. Be by myself, discover, grow. Just have time to think without having parents and relatives and friends all needing to have their opinion heard. I think I might actually do this. But still it is scary. Am I gonna survive all by myself in a strange country which is far away from home? I don't know....I don't know anything right now.....